Monday, November 5, 2012


Its amazing to me that no matter how old you still learn new things about yourself.  Things you thought you knew...

Recently, I was judged very harshly...behind my back...from a person I learned to trust mistakenly all too quickly.  They have only known me and my children a very short time...they did not like a decision we made as a family and instead of choosing to respect our wishes and decisions, they attacked me.  Not one bit was was shocking.  I was hurt and the trust shattered...hope of a new future at this place of worship crumbled.  Are we here again?!?! We just went through this!  I was angry, frustrated.....I know my ideals of homeschooling aren't for everyone....but to judge my children and I unjustly when you've never sat in my "classroom" or my home, is poor judgement.

I wanted immediately to stop the project we were working on...just quit...walk away...pretend you don't care what what they think of you.  Just leave.  

Then a split second later I was ready to pounce on the phone to request a meeting.  I would confront the judgements and set it aright.  But...thats not me...I'm a peacemaker...I don't do confrontations. 

I learned and am still learning...that life is too full of wonderful opportunities, hidden beauties, incredible souls, and splendid hang onto grudges, lies, hurts, ect.  Forgiveness doesn't seem so hard once you've experienced the effects of truly letting go of those hurts.  By and by time heals the hurts, and you replace those hurts with good friends and chat laugh over cups of Latte Machiattos and knitting needles, adventures in nature, traveling to a foreign country, counting your blessings and cherishing every moment with the ones who do love and adore you no matter how different you are.  You learn the hard way that those pricks and stings suck the life out of everything you used to enjoy in life.....Forgiveness is the bandaid and CHOOSING to move on and love life again are the scabs that cover those hurts and seal it away.  Yes, there may be scars....but now they are a reminder of how it feels to truly forgive....that you CAN forgive, smile, laugh again, and pray for those who cannot.  Those scabs only remind you of how far you've come...and how STRONG you are!

Fast forward two weeks.....and I am reminded that All things are temporary....even the good times.  So shrug off the depression, worry and discouragement....this too shall pass!  And let it remind me that I should cherish every second of pure joy and peace, because that too is temporary.  Life has been bends in it's roads.....don't let it's roadblock of hurts and bitter disappointments keep you from reaching that next bend with all its amazing beauty and memorable adventures.

Peace and blessings,

Krakow, Poland



Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you had this experience. I understand being judged and how hurtful it can be. I love the last paragraph. This is an encouraging post. Thank you!

Aubrey said...

Thank you Brooke! You encourage me! xo

Ayesha Beasley said...

Well said, well said. As a "nonperfect" homeschool Mom, I feel ya. There are no perfect teachers, nor perfect schools, nor perfect curricula, nor perfect methods of teaching. I have to remind myself at times of this fact, because somehow people tend to think we as hms Moms should be perfect. But, whats perfect for some just isn't for others. Love you Aubrey!

Loree said...

Wonderful sentiments Aubrey. Forgiving is not easy but sometimes, it is necessary. But what's more important is finding the courage to move on.

mommy2maddiealex said...

Just what I needed to read today! When you don't forgive, you can't move on.

PS: Love the new blog!

A said...

I agree, moving on is the best thing one can do. You can't please everyone...

Tawney Rae said...

I haven't been on your blog for a while, and was reading through your posts... and this was just what I needed to read today. I have been in this exact place recently with someone I was very close to, and I was thinking about this subject today, so this was such a sweet reminder and encouragement for me! Thank you so much for sharing!